A brand new feeling

      How many people can understanding other's feeling?

I know he was working game creator and have to work in night time.

      I am also trying to be a good and responsible  partner for him,

but i am cannot do so.

When people blame on him and give him too much stress,

I know just because of me,they only will blame on him nor me,

but I stay beside him and understand his feeling a little bit.

He just need someone to understand his feeling and support him,

but no one really understand and want to know him well,

If someone without supporting,the person may giving up easily and soon loss hope,

a little bit stress will give some motive to a person to success his pathway,

but too much stress or pressure may causing people hard to breathe and lost his spiritual.

And he was told me that sometimes he wanna giving up himself

just because too much stress and tense in his life.

*A moral supporting is a great supporting for a persom who willing to achieve his goal,

especially a supporting from family member and  outsider can give a great motive to other.

A little bit stress or pressure can encourage people to do better,

but over stress or pressure may causing people giving up easily even hard to breathe.

2012 1st post

                        Anyone can tell me whose life is being easily without trouble and stress?

                       Nowaday,life costs is raising and making all people life more harder.

                       

                      If not me, he will not giving up any chance to enroll local university or foreign university.

                      Maybe now he is studying harder in university to achieve his goal and dream.

                     Because of me,I'm making his life harder and his relative also push him so hard,

                      these making him hard to breathe and sadding.

                  But for me,I'm waiting my result coming and making a decision for my pathway.

                  If i'm cannot enroll university.I'm will not blame anyone because I not study hard on that time

                  And hope my relative don't blame on him because of my failure.

                 If  I'm can enroll university,I will further study because I'm want continue his dream and no

                give any chance to people look down upon me

       *some of success people they are not having a higher education but they are depend on their hardworking to achieve their goal like jacky chan he are not higher educational but he is try his best to achieve his goal.

       christmas is coming and all people are preparing to celebrate this big day with their relative

        How about me?I'm also prepare a special thing to a special person.

         For me,women and man are two different creature and they have own thinking.

        Sometimes,a women nagging a men is a expression for caring,

       but a men maybe you feel disturbing after nagging by women.

       Sometimes, a women will think about men's feeling when she doing something anytime,

      but men will think carefully before tell the women .

     Sometimes,a women just want a men understand their feeling ,

     but men is hard to express their feeling to a women.

     sometimes,women request something to a man because she want the men accompany her together,

    but the men will just tell the men He need some rest day or personal time to alone.

   After that,the women will feel little bit  lose hope because the main reason is she need a man accompany her nor others.

     

     *If man can stand in women's mind and think about it,I'm sure He will understand  what the women needed.

December's feeling

             Time pass faster and come to december again

           Last december,before christmas is too much happened on me,

            First,he occured accident after sent Friend and me to tuition

               This incident made My heart bleeding and breaking,even doing laundry also cannot control emotion

                and cried non-stop.

            Last christmas was a unforgetable for me due to the accident.

        

           This december near christmas,his leg hurt again due to past accident,that is a nightmare for me,

                 because when i saw he walking forcelly,my heart will bleeding and breaking,

                    I think december is a bad month of us or god send a quest to us for our willpower,

                         but this is hurting my feeling and be strong forcelly to make him comfort.

                    Soon,his leg will recover again and i'm bought a special gift for his christmas gift.

                        This christmas gift have special function and a undescribe present,

                       Even when I'm bought it will think about price and worth or not,

                             but I sure if i bought to him,is a worth present because He is my special person

                                  and special present for a special person.

   

After 1 and more yr dating

I found that during 1 year more dating can find some taste in our love life .....In my love life,him and i already facing and pass through many pathway and those pathway contain 3 or 2 flavour which is sweet,bitter,sour or spicy. The most of them is sweet and bitter.
 Part 1:sweet
 During our first time love life until recent once,i can find many sweet memory for us.Sometimes he give surprise to me which is out of my mind. Even just a simple celebration and normal day,can also find some sweetness inside our heart. A normal day which we spend our time in home also a simple love life for us because we can enjoy peaceful day without any trouble. When your man cook a simply dishes as dinner or lunch and suggest eat with you in his home,can also be a sweet memory because not all the guy will do the same thing to you . some day we just spend time in his home and no out dating can also be a good way for us. After a busy and rush life,when i met him can feel my heart is console by him because when time needed ,he always appear infront of me. Even just a warn huggie from him can be a sweetness for me because his huggie can warm my heart and let me know there a shoulder just for me to cry and i will feel there a safety place for me. sometimes i found that sweet mounthed is unnecessary and can feel it from his heart.
 *I love his dishes and hand-made desert which can feel his sincerity to me and even just a simple thing also sweetness for me
 *I can't rewrite all of my sweetness because too much to write and just simply it in here
*I love his spagetti so much and can't leave him alone because my heart belong with his heart and he success lock my heart forever
*one dishes from your man can lock one heart

Part2:bitter 
 Bitter in my definition is heart bleeding and heart broken period........this period make our life hard and cried alot and sadness. The period start from last year of december,i still remember that situation cause a nightmare and most heart bleeding for me. That day,when he pick my friend and i go tuition .......after that,suddenly i receive his call that he was involved accident but luckily god is protect him and just survive from the accident..............That time i felt my world is gone and almost cried but luckily my friend console me that don't worry maybe he no injure. during this nightmare,everyday everytime when i think about it,my teardrop was come out non-stop.....Even i'm doing laundry also will cried.... I realize that I can't live or survive without him............He is a part of my life. After that,many bad thing was happen on us .........During one time,I was struggling and evil came out because evil told me that you can decide to end up this relationship because it is too much heart broken for me but My angel was against it and support me until now. When he fall sick,My heart will bleeding an pain because i'm do nothing for him. When i knew something from somewhere and someone ,I'm decide will not easily give up because there a place for me to stay stronger and let me know there a secure place for me.
 *even bitterness can spoil one love life but trust and faith will keep them stronger
 *every pathway have bitterness but see people how to pass thorugh it......after bitterness,there a sweetness for you
 *if every couple can pass thorugh the pathway,i'm believe they can spent their life longer and longer *I can't rewrite all bitterness because  too much of it and just take a most bitterness which i think about

Sometimes I think can we overcome all the problem and walk together for long journey

Can the small arguement will influence our relationship or just let it cross over?

Why sometimes we starting argue each other and don't just calm down to compromise each other?

Why you always tell me got own plan but why don't tell me detail and keep it away?

In this world,does every couple can overcome all the small stuff and walk or hold each other to walk a long journey and whole life?

as older say trustworthy is a important element for every couple

If every couple without trustworthy will easily break themselves and make their relationship worse,

otherwise,If every couple have a strongwill and trust each other,they can cross all the ploblem and stay longer.

I'm need self-reflection

                        Just now I know that the way of my dating causing some problem to us

                        and  someones told me that I'm make someones feel bad,

                        because of my problem and not understand someones well,

                        if I'm continuos that way,later will cause the relationship bacome bad

                        and maybe that time is  the most i'm can't take .

                     I'm realize need to self-reflection more and more ,

                    I'm don't want break our realationship

             

                          

Recently

              Recenly,I and him has many arguement .

             One day,he inform me that He gonna to sweden  soon,

             because he wanna continue his study to one of the university for sweden,

            He told me that  the university is one of the top university ,

           After my STPM, He will go there for few month to arrange all those stuff,

          When i heard all these stuff, first of my mind come out is heartbreaking,

           Because he wil  leave me alone in Malaysia and go there to study,

       I'm told him how am my feeling but he seem decide go there is best choice,

          He also inform me go there to study just for three year and these year's time will pass faster,

           because both of us are further study too.

        But when you alone facing those year and time ,do those time will pass faster?

        When you feel lonely, do you know how lonely is it?

    

       Otherwise,If he go there to study,maybe is the best choice for him,

       Because he is  talent ,if he stay in malaysia to study ,will only just waste his time,

      Malaysia not suitable for him.

     Someone asked me if you complete your stpm ,what you want to do?

   I'm give one answer is further my study in local university,because I'm have no choice .

 If can , I will say if i'm able to study in overseas , I'm also hope to go overseas to further my study.

    If you know something well ,does not mean you can look down upon people ,

   How you know one day the person who you look down before can success than you.

我的感想

       昨天是最后一天的考试日子，就表示半年考已过去了，而其它重要的考试倒数着，

       无论如何也好，至少平时的我都有专心听课过，还有我至少也尽了力了，

       虽然这次考试难免会有点遗憾，但至少我都把记得和读过的东西写了出来，

       最重要在接下来的几个月里好好地冲刺和拼了，因为我的未来就在我手中。

      有些情侣在人们面前时是恩爱的，但有些事是你们不知道   的，你们不知道在他们相处

     过程中有过不愉快或另一面的事情发生。

      有时当我在他家陪他时，我会突然有种不愉快的感觉，那种感觉是难以形容的，

      只有我最了解那种感觉。在这半年里，我和他经历很多事情，吵到冷战也不是第一次了，

     有时因为各自的想法和意见不同，而吵了几次。

    其实我最在乎是他对我所说的每句话，有时他冲口而出的话会伤害到我的心，他却不知道

   他的话对我的心造成的伤害，有时和他发生争执时我都尽量保持沉默，因为我不想和他吵。

   每次和他发生争执时，我都很难过因为我只想平静地和他在一起，而每当发生争执时，我就

   心伤了。

    我要的是你的行动而不是海誓山约，因为只有行动和时间才能证明你对我的真诚度，

    每天能够陪我记得分钟就够了，我并不希望因为你没睡觉为了睡觉而忽略我的感受，

   我只希望你能明代和了解我的感受，而不是忽略我的存在。

   我知道你有时因为累了而睡觉，但你要知道我去你家是陪你，所以请你别忽略我的存在。

The most important things in life is family ,Do you agree?

          Long time don't update my blogger already,
          And just now have some idea to continuing my blogger,
someone say money is more important and someone say money can make everything perfect,
          But do you thinking about your family is the most important thing in your life is family?
         I totally agree about this statement because every people has not same family,but somehow some people is unlucky and they since born out do not family and lonely in this world,
        Money can't buy any relationship especially family because only god can decide which family to you,
but you do not have chance to decide which family you want.
         Even you are rich but do not have family support you also useless because family can give you a warm feeling and give you feel secure when  you happen something in outside.
         Someone say if no money then maybe will break the family but I think if your family is really love and care about you even you not so rich also will still treat like same.
        Maybe the time will passing hardly but the family will still give supporting to you to spend the hard time,
family is family,they will still same to love and care about you.
       When you need them , they will come out and give you a helping hand to solve the problem,when you in trouble,the family is the first person come out to help you because they care and love you more than other.
     Last thing ,family is more important than money because money can't buy any realationship,when you need them ,they will come out to give you a helping you,when you in trouble,they will be more worry to other,when you feel sad ,they will console you.
     Family always will support you in anytime and anywhere,no matter how you are ,they are still same to you,never change to you,only family can fully trusted.



                 Family is the most important thing in life,no people want to be lonely.

Recently mood

             Recently,my mood is not so stable,sometimes depressed,sometimes is mood~less,
             These few day,I'm thinking a lot and also ask my friend how's her and her boy friend,
            She told me that her boyfriend not tell her the truth and sometimes he sleep until forget his promise to
            her,
           She said his friend told her if her don't get along with him longer~can break up to his boyfriend,
           but everytimes his boyfriend make always almost want to say the word,
           I'm know his boyfriend make her so moody and mood~less,
           She also say his boyfriend is hopeless for her because he look like no sincere to her,
           And she will not easily believe his boyfriend is sincere with any word.
          Why his boyfriend do this to her?As i known ,she is a good person to me.

          If you can realize the promise to somebody~please don't easily promise to people,
          because if you failed to do that~the person which you promise will feel sad and disappionted or despair.
       

           girl 's heart like a glass is easily to get breaking,if you fully love the girl,please don't hurt the girl so much and protect her heart with carefully.Girl's heart is easily to protect because girl need more care and take care their feeling ,even they need a people to protect her and her so much.