我的感想

       昨天是最后一天的考试日子，就表示半年考已过去了，而其它重要的考试倒数着，

       无论如何也好，至少平时的我都有专心听课过，还有我至少也尽了力了，

       虽然这次考试难免会有点遗憾，但至少我都把记得和读过的东西写了出来，

       最重要在接下来的几个月里好好地冲刺和拼了，因为我的未来就在我手中。

      有些情侣在人们面前时是恩爱的，但有些事是你们不知道   的，你们不知道在他们相处

     过程中有过不愉快或另一面的事情发生。

      有时当我在他家陪他时，我会突然有种不愉快的感觉，那种感觉是难以形容的，

      只有我最了解那种感觉。在这半年里，我和他经历很多事情，吵到冷战也不是第一次了，

     有时因为各自的想法和意见不同，而吵了几次。

    其实我最在乎是他对我所说的每句话，有时他冲口而出的话会伤害到我的心，他却不知道

   他的话对我的心造成的伤害，有时和他发生争执时我都尽量保持沉默，因为我不想和他吵。

   每次和他发生争执时，我都很难过因为我只想平静地和他在一起，而每当发生争执时，我就

   心伤了。

    我要的是你的行动而不是海誓山约，因为只有行动和时间才能证明你对我的真诚度，

    每天能够陪我记得分钟就够了，我并不希望因为你没睡觉为了睡觉而忽略我的感受，

   我只希望你能明代和了解我的感受，而不是忽略我的存在。

   我知道你有时因为累了而睡觉，但你要知道我去你家是陪你，所以请你别忽略我的存在。

The most important things in life is family ,Do you agree?

          Long time don't update my blogger already,
          And just now have some idea to continuing my blogger,
someone say money is more important and someone say money can make everything perfect,
          But do you thinking about your family is the most important thing in your life is family?
         I totally agree about this statement because every people has not same family,but somehow some people is unlucky and they since born out do not family and lonely in this world,
        Money can't buy any relationship especially family because only god can decide which family to you,
but you do not have chance to decide which family you want.
         Even you are rich but do not have family support you also useless because family can give you a warm feeling and give you feel secure when  you happen something in outside.
         Someone say if no money then maybe will break the family but I think if your family is really love and care about you even you not so rich also will still treat like same.
        Maybe the time will passing hardly but the family will still give supporting to you to spend the hard time,
family is family,they will still same to love and care about you.
       When you need them , they will come out and give you a helping hand to solve the problem,when you in trouble,the family is the first person come out to help you because they care and love you more than other.
     Last thing ,family is more important than money because money can't buy any realationship,when you need them ,they will come out to give you a helping you,when you in trouble,they will be more worry to other,when you feel sad ,they will console you.
     Family always will support you in anytime and anywhere,no matter how you are ,they are still same to you,never change to you,only family can fully trusted.



                 Family is the most important thing in life,no people want to be lonely.

Recently mood

             Recently,my mood is not so stable,sometimes depressed,sometimes is mood~less,
             These few day,I'm thinking a lot and also ask my friend how's her and her boy friend,
            She told me that her boyfriend not tell her the truth and sometimes he sleep until forget his promise to
            her,
           She said his friend told her if her don't get along with him longer~can break up to his boyfriend,
           but everytimes his boyfriend make always almost want to say the word,
           I'm know his boyfriend make her so moody and mood~less,
           She also say his boyfriend is hopeless for her because he look like no sincere to her,
           And she will not easily believe his boyfriend is sincere with any word.
          Why his boyfriend do this to her?As i known ,she is a good person to me.

          If you can realize the promise to somebody~please don't easily promise to people,
          because if you failed to do that~the person which you promise will feel sad and disappionted or despair.
       

           girl 's heart like a glass is easily to get breaking,if you fully love the girl,please don't hurt the girl so much and protect her heart with carefully.Girl's heart is easily to protect because girl need more care and take care their feeling ,even they need a people to protect her and her so much.
         

Today's mood

             Just now know my march exam get band 3 and feel that my muet is already retrogress,
             even my classmate also told me that my muet is retrogress,
             I'm think the listening and writing are the most difficult part to score for me,
             Just because the writing's one part get band 3 and other get band 2 and make me drop to band 3,
             listening also worse because so hard to me to catch the point,
             Two of my friend get band 4 and fell that they are already improve to themselves,
             
            This march exam's result is worse is does't mean anything,
            maybe next time I'm can get better than this result,
            Now until mid-year exam still got many time to improve myself ,
            Now cannot go trip with my friend but I'm can use the time to study myself,
            I'm just feel some little stress because my target for MUET is atleast get band 4 but I'm have to try  
            harder to achieve my goal.
           In front of my sight have many better future for me,
         I'm cannot easily giving up for myself,
         I'm must remember my proverb never give up.

                       Just now I know that He is busy working and even din eat his lunch and breakfast,

                   And his friend told me that He is very busy and his working life is hard to him and

                  L ook at him in his office.. is hard for him.. he work because for MY FUTURE.

                 All thing done by him is just for me.And I'm realize I'm was selfish and don't understand him so much.

                 What can I'm do for him is try to control my emotion and try to understand his situation.

                He also want accompany me because his job is too much thing to do and will often accompany me.

               I hope the time can pass quickly and all the thing will be fine.

               If this year I can success my study journey,after that anything will be fine.

Recently the mood

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the day after tomorow will be my exam week

          this due to the tiring reasons,

         These day my mood not so stable and sometimes will feel lazy and tired,

         Maybe the exam causes me some little stressful,

        My class teacher said if all of us in this exam get one subject failed and will punish us

       after that,I will worried about my some subject because those subject make me failed in last year,

      so this time ,I'm must make sure those subject will pass in this exam,

      but sometimes I will temporary hardworking to do revision,after that become origin.

      

       Everytimes when the exam is coming,will make me feel stress and hate that feeling,

        IN these year,I very hope can quickly finishing my study journey and take some destination to  

        relaxing my mind and my soul.

        If get a chance,I'm willing to travel in other country and experience their natural environment.

      If get a chance,I'm willing to put down boulder and relaxing my mind.

交往半年的心声

                                 他是她的他，她有时拿他当出气筒，而他就乖乖地给她发泄，

                                  她喜欢他，她觉得他有安全感，很舒服。

                                  她在最灰心的时候，最需要他的劝告，在最难过的时候，最需要他的安慰，

                                 当她知道他出事和生病的时候，就会心痛难过。

                                

                           从去年到现在已有半年了，她和他都经历过不少不愉快的事，

                          甚至从冷战到差点放弃对方也有试过，到后来因为想通了，

                           而坚持下去和他度过难关，他为了迁就她就忍声吞气地委屈自己来迁就她。

                          他在她的朋友眼中是个好男友。她的朋友叫她要好好珍惜他和不要放弃他。

                          有时她的一时冲动却不知道会间接地伤害了他。而他却默默地忍受她的任性。

                           

                          她有时想为自己的冲动而向他道歉，却心里挣扎着该该道歉才好。

                          她和他冷战时其实内心是很痛苦的，但为了避免再争吵，她只好沉默起来了。

                         

                           谢谢他在半年以来包容她的任性和付出。

My feeling

           My march's exam is coming soon and I'm want to keep my last final exam muet's band

           One day,my classmate Jia weng told me that before that I'm had ambitoius to score some   

          subject and last time I'm never lazy to do revision.

          But now I'm already change and lazy to do revision,even the exam is near the corner.

         Yesterday,he told me that he got a great job and the post is branch manager,

         and I'm felt that when he get the post,will become a busy person and will can't beside me everytime,

       but when the situation stuck in my mind, I felt depressed because the time we get along with each 

      other will less than before that.

      

         The situation same with my sister and her boyfiriend,when my sister study local Uniwersiti in 

        labuan and leave her boyfriend in here to working,but they just can get along with each other in

       few month,because my sister few month come back each time,when they meet each other,

       they will treasure that time very much and appreciate it.

    But how can my sister can do this?For me ,maybe a selfish person and just want my love ones can always beside me.But now I'm no longer can just stand by my side and think about his feeling.

 what can i do for him is just give supporting for him to working and earn more money to secure a better future life.When his busying with his own job,maybe I can try harder to keep the feeling and do revise to make myself busy to don't think too much.


                           Same thing is just hope the time can past faster.

When you almost want start to quarrel with your partner

                              When you feel almost start to quarrel with your partner,    

                             What should we do?Apology or keep silent?

                             I think I will choose reticent .

                            because whatever I'm talking also will make us start to quarrel.

                           when you quarrel with your partner,finally you will get nothing and will feel Hurt and 

                          heart breaking even sadness.

                           So,when I'm almost quarrel to him, suddenly I will reticent because I'm don't want 

                         hurt  each other.Even if his response not good for me,I'm also still reticent.

                          Everytime quarrel with him,finally my heart is broken and feel hurt ,even sadness.

                        

                      Quarrel with your partner will get mothing,but can hurt others feeling.even can make us

                      to break up.But sometimes your partnet is for your own good, you will not accept it well

                     and you can try to accept it slowly.Finally ,you know all the thing done by him is just for 

                      your good and stand by your point.Even me sometimes can't stand by him point and

                      misreading their meaning.Then he will feel sad.

 

       Women is oversensitive because she worrying about other and scare will lost other ,

      But the men are disagree what about the women thinking.

     Sometimes women is care about the men ,but the men disunderstand their women's meaning,

    and scold their women so noisy.

                          I hope men can understand the women's thinking,if she is oversensitive about you,

                          that means they care about you and not a busybody.

                       If she give advise to you,you must accept it well,because not all the women will do this 

                       for her men.

                         

                     

The happening of yesterday

Yesterday night,he had a bad mood,and use not good voice to reply my question
but I felt that no need quarrel with him and keep silent to him
When he drove the car to fetch me back,his speed is speed up and I was
disunderstood.
after that when the time is about twelve something,I saw two message from him
to explain why him like that.And I also reply to him.
He sais all the lesson for him,and one of the lesson is he force me to study
just because want me know is for my own good and can secure the better future.
And however the life is difficult,he also never give up to me.
What are he thnking just for my own good and sometimes I'm can accept it well.
After that,he apologize to me and is ok to me.

When I was decide

When I was working as coordinator in one company,
I was thinking about how to continue my study and choose some decision
Finaly,I was decide to study form six to be my choice,
just because my spm result was not satisfaction and I made dificult
decision is study form six to continue my study journey.
That time when I was decide ,I was not think too much and just want to
made my result complete perfectly and don't want feel regret again,
so I'm thought the choice are good choice.
But many people said if you choose to study form six is very dificult
because in one and a half year you must hardworking and make sure you
get a good result can enter the local universiti.
For me,I'm just want to complete my study journey in form six but not .
But not about enter the local universiti.

And now,my family member expecially my mother often emphasize want my
aim is finishing my form six with perfectly and enter the local
universiti to succeed my study journey.
Even he also want me succeed my form six's journey and enter the local
universiti.
Originally,my aim is not about universiti and is about complete my aim
and now everyone hope me can enter the universiti.
How can I make myself don't feel regret again and make everyone the
dreams come true?That is a big trouble for me?

haiz..

当你一时的期望被一些因素影响到的时候，

你的理智出现先还是情绪出现先，

我很确定地告诉你，我是情绪出现先，因为每次你告诉我某些决定，我的思想就会告诉我，

我的某些东西可能会有所改变或影响，所以会有点情绪化，

有时每当情绪化时，我的情绪就有所波动而淹没了我的理智，那时的我根本分辨不出好还是坏，

我有时的思想会偏向负面，因为我觉得我是那种有点忧郁的人，所以每当告诉我一些事，

我是不能很理智地想东西。

人家说就算天塌下来，我们也应该看开点因为凡事都有它的原因，有些事是由不得你作决定，

所以只好听天由命和见步行步。

Continueing the last topic
Now,I'm very agree about m topics,that i health is important than wealth,because my love ones nearly fall to sick and my mood become bad.This is due to the he don't take care his body an always burn midnight oil for his own paperwork.

Who can tell me wealth is more important or health is more important?

sometimes I'm think about it,maybe wealth can secure a better life

but sometimes when yours love ones is sick,maybe you get some bad feeling

like me when my love ones is getting sick or not feeling well,my feeling is sad and my mood is not so good,

even I will think health will more important than wealth,

but maybe some people will disagree with me, just because now the world is become materialistic,so they will think wealth is more important than health,

without money cannot do anything,got money can do anything.

But if you got money and you is not healthy,can you do anything you want to do without anxiety.

But if you got money and you have a good healthy,I can tell you you sure can do anything without anxiety.

提醒自己

我有时发觉自己的情绪管理有点问题

因为有时会突然对他发脾气，但他却对我容忍，虽然每次都是我开始吵起来，

但到最后都是他主动向我道歉，而不是我主动的，又是我的任性却会造成他自己的委屈，

有时他为了成全我而委屈了自己。有时他的想法是对的，我却一时激动地闹情绪。

我现在新年愿望就是希望他平平安安无事和健健康康地和我在一起了，我会珍惜我和他度过的 每一分每一秒，

因为我发现我好像不能缺少了他，他的抱抱能带给我的安心，他的安慰能抚平我不安的心，

有你就好了，我想和你度过未来的这些日子。

2011

新的一年新的开始，老天爷又在给我们考验了，

或许老天爷要让我知道爱一个人并不容易，

所以从去年尾到今年都设下许多考验在他身上，

要考验我是不是一个容易放弃的人，

虽然刚开始那些考验真的令我和他心痛流泪了许多次，

但我们都必须心痛后才能通过这些考验，

他和我说过一句话：过了这些难关后就好了，幸福就在等我们了，过了风风雨雨后我们的未来就好了

今年似乎很难过了，因为他找到工作后就不能常陪我了而我就要面临STPM了，

虽然我曾经有想过要放弃这段情，但我告诉自己这条路是我选择的，

所以不能轻易放弃自己，否则对不起自己。

我相信这些难关打不倒我们，过了这年就好了。

我一定要坚持到底，不能轻易就放弃了。

上天给了我们俩很多的考验，
从他的脚不小心扭伤到发生意外再到他亲爱的外婆生病了，
都考验了我们不少的能耐，我们都忍耐了不少对彼此的思念，
那时他发生意外时我的心就痛了，心情都不大好，那时默默地流眼泪了。
那时的心灵创伤慢慢地好起来了。那时只有我和他了解彼此的感受而已。
那时我也可以慢慢熬过来了。
如今他亲爱的外婆生病了需要他的照料，我们可以出外的时间就减少了，
虽然心里有点难过和不好受甚至失望，但我也不能责怪他，因为这不是他的错。
虽然现在到明年有可能缩短了我们出外的时间，但未来还有很长的路让我们一起渡过。
我相信难不倒我的，不能出外没关系就当作训练着我在家的能耐吧，
反正明年会有段时间需要呆在家温习和发奋图强的，就当作不能出外是种磨练吧。

老天爷给的考验，也许是想磨练我和他的能耐，
但我相信只要熬过老天爷的考验就有美好的日子等着我们。
我一定要坚强面对这些难过的日子来证明我是不会被打倒的。
暂时的痛苦`难过和失望不算什么，未来还有更艰难的路等着我们来渡过。

哭过了就算了，我还是要照样过日子的，老公你也是哭过了就算了，擦掉眼泪和我一起熬过去。

刚才，不懂为什么我的眼泪突然掉下来。
本来和他信息着，突然心情有点悲哀，接着就有点想哭
当我告诉他我姐姐明晚要回去念大学时，我的眼泪就不自觉地掉下来。
我也不懂为什么只是一下子掉泪罢了。
有时我会觉得我姐很烦人和吵死人的，可是心里就不懂怎样想了。


有时我比较喜欢一个人静静让脑袋清静点，所以有时我会选择一个人躲在书房也好或睡房也好，
因为我只想静静坐下来做我的东西。
有时家人问我东西，其实我是听到的，但那时的我由于不想多回答没必要的问题，
所以宁愿被骂，也保持着沉默不语，也许沉默是金对我来说是最好不过的。

当我面对他时，他仿佛能知道我有心事的，有时家里的苦事自己
屈在心里是不好受的，
虽然家人说不能说出去，但屈在心里实在难受，所以只好向他诉苦，也许没那么难受。

自从那天的意外后，我会更珍惜你我之的情谊了
当我听到你出事了时，我的心就不安了，脑袋就想不到东西了
那时候的我虽然我补着习，但我的心是在担心着你，
再听到你受伤了，我的心就痛了，就心碎了，就像“心碎了才懂”那样，
我的眼泪就快掉下来了，但我的朋友在旁边安慰着我的情绪，
我就自我安慰地说你一定没事的，庆幸你只是脚受伤罢了，
感谢老天爷的保佑，让你逃过死劫，这场意外就当作老天爷给我们的考验，
祂要磨炼我们之间的感情，我相信我们可以通过这些考验来渡过接下来的难关，
彼此的感情又增进了一步。我相信我们会更珍惜接下来的每一分每一秒了。

就像我姐说的~当你听到你的男/女朋友出事时，你觉得心痛和流泪，然后就没心情，
这证明你很深爱着对方，很在乎对方，和truly in love.

Why I'm suddenly down?
Why I'm feel depressed just now?
What am thinking about just now?
Who can tell me the way to solve these question?
Sometimes I'm will lost my thinking and
Do not know What i'm wanted and what am thinking about?
Maybe no reason can made me stop thinking or
Maybe the pressure force like that.
Mayde I'm thinking too much about the non-sense question
Maybe I'm want to reaxing abit and don't force myself again
and trust him and myself