christmas is coming and all people are preparing to celebrate this big day with their relative

        How about me?I'm also prepare a special thing to a special person.

         For me,women and man are two different creature and they have own thinking.

        Sometimes,a women nagging a men is a expression for caring,

       but a men maybe you feel disturbing after nagging by women.

       Sometimes, a women will think about men's feeling when she doing something anytime,

      but men will think carefully before tell the women .

     Sometimes,a women just want a men understand their feeling ,

     but men is hard to express their feeling to a women.

     sometimes,women request something to a man because she want the men accompany her together,

    but the men will just tell the men He need some rest day or personal time to alone.

   After that,the women will feel little bit  lose hope because the main reason is she need a man accompany her nor others.

     

     *If man can stand in women's mind and think about it,I'm sure He will understand  what the women needed.

December's feeling

             Time pass faster and come to december again

           Last december,before christmas is too much happened on me,

            First,he occured accident after sent Friend and me to tuition

               This incident made My heart bleeding and breaking,even doing laundry also cannot control emotion

                and cried non-stop.

            Last christmas was a unforgetable for me due to the accident.

        

           This december near christmas,his leg hurt again due to past accident,that is a nightmare for me,

                 because when i saw he walking forcelly,my heart will bleeding and breaking,

                    I think december is a bad month of us or god send a quest to us for our willpower,

                         but this is hurting my feeling and be strong forcelly to make him comfort.

                    Soon,his leg will recover again and i'm bought a special gift for his christmas gift.

                        This christmas gift have special function and a undescribe present,

                       Even when I'm bought it will think about price and worth or not,

                             but I sure if i bought to him,is a worth present because He is my special person

                                  and special present for a special person.

   

After 1 and more yr dating

I found that during 1 year more dating can find some taste in our love life .....In my love life,him and i already facing and pass through many pathway and those pathway contain 3 or 2 flavour which is sweet,bitter,sour or spicy. The most of them is sweet and bitter.
 Part 1:sweet
 During our first time love life until recent once,i can find many sweet memory for us.Sometimes he give surprise to me which is out of my mind. Even just a simple celebration and normal day,can also find some sweetness inside our heart. A normal day which we spend our time in home also a simple love life for us because we can enjoy peaceful day without any trouble. When your man cook a simply dishes as dinner or lunch and suggest eat with you in his home,can also be a sweet memory because not all the guy will do the same thing to you . some day we just spend time in his home and no out dating can also be a good way for us. After a busy and rush life,when i met him can feel my heart is console by him because when time needed ,he always appear infront of me. Even just a warn huggie from him can be a sweetness for me because his huggie can warm my heart and let me know there a shoulder just for me to cry and i will feel there a safety place for me. sometimes i found that sweet mounthed is unnecessary and can feel it from his heart.
 *I love his dishes and hand-made desert which can feel his sincerity to me and even just a simple thing also sweetness for me
 *I can't rewrite all of my sweetness because too much to write and just simply it in here
*I love his spagetti so much and can't leave him alone because my heart belong with his heart and he success lock my heart forever
*one dishes from your man can lock one heart

Part2:bitter 
 Bitter in my definition is heart bleeding and heart broken period........this period make our life hard and cried alot and sadness. The period start from last year of december,i still remember that situation cause a nightmare and most heart bleeding for me. That day,when he pick my friend and i go tuition .......after that,suddenly i receive his call that he was involved accident but luckily god is protect him and just survive from the accident..............That time i felt my world is gone and almost cried but luckily my friend console me that don't worry maybe he no injure. during this nightmare,everyday everytime when i think about it,my teardrop was come out non-stop.....Even i'm doing laundry also will cried.... I realize that I can't live or survive without him............He is a part of my life. After that,many bad thing was happen on us .........During one time,I was struggling and evil came out because evil told me that you can decide to end up this relationship because it is too much heart broken for me but My angel was against it and support me until now. When he fall sick,My heart will bleeding an pain because i'm do nothing for him. When i knew something from somewhere and someone ,I'm decide will not easily give up because there a place for me to stay stronger and let me know there a secure place for me.
 *even bitterness can spoil one love life but trust and faith will keep them stronger
 *every pathway have bitterness but see people how to pass thorugh it......after bitterness,there a sweetness for you
 *if every couple can pass thorugh the pathway,i'm believe they can spent their life longer and longer *I can't rewrite all bitterness because  too much of it and just take a most bitterness which i think about

Sometimes I think can we overcome all the problem and walk together for long journey

Can the small arguement will influence our relationship or just let it cross over?

Why sometimes we starting argue each other and don't just calm down to compromise each other?

Why you always tell me got own plan but why don't tell me detail and keep it away?

In this world,does every couple can overcome all the small stuff and walk or hold each other to walk a long journey and whole life?

as older say trustworthy is a important element for every couple

If every couple without trustworthy will easily break themselves and make their relationship worse,

otherwise,If every couple have a strongwill and trust each other,they can cross all the ploblem and stay longer.

I'm need self-reflection

                        Just now I know that the way of my dating causing some problem to us

                        and  someones told me that I'm make someones feel bad,

                        because of my problem and not understand someones well,

                        if I'm continuos that way,later will cause the relationship bacome bad

                        and maybe that time is  the most i'm can't take .

                     I'm realize need to self-reflection more and more ,

                    I'm don't want break our realationship

             

                          

Recently

              Recenly,I and him has many arguement .

             One day,he inform me that He gonna to sweden  soon,

             because he wanna continue his study to one of the university for sweden,

            He told me that  the university is one of the top university ,

           After my STPM, He will go there for few month to arrange all those stuff,

          When i heard all these stuff, first of my mind come out is heartbreaking,

           Because he wil  leave me alone in Malaysia and go there to study,

       I'm told him how am my feeling but he seem decide go there is best choice,

          He also inform me go there to study just for three year and these year's time will pass faster,

           because both of us are further study too.

        But when you alone facing those year and time ,do those time will pass faster?

        When you feel lonely, do you know how lonely is it?

    

       Otherwise,If he go there to study,maybe is the best choice for him,

       Because he is  talent ,if he stay in malaysia to study ,will only just waste his time,

      Malaysia not suitable for him.

     Someone asked me if you complete your stpm ,what you want to do?

   I'm give one answer is further my study in local university,because I'm have no choice .

 If can , I will say if i'm able to study in overseas , I'm also hope to go overseas to further my study.

    If you know something well ,does not mean you can look down upon people ,

   How you know one day the person who you look down before can success than you.

我的感想

       昨天是最后一天的考试日子，就表示半年考已过去了，而其它重要的考试倒数着，

       无论如何也好，至少平时的我都有专心听课过，还有我至少也尽了力了，

       虽然这次考试难免会有点遗憾，但至少我都把记得和读过的东西写了出来，

       最重要在接下来的几个月里好好地冲刺和拼了，因为我的未来就在我手中。

      有些情侣在人们面前时是恩爱的，但有些事是你们不知道   的，你们不知道在他们相处

     过程中有过不愉快或另一面的事情发生。

      有时当我在他家陪他时，我会突然有种不愉快的感觉，那种感觉是难以形容的，

      只有我最了解那种感觉。在这半年里，我和他经历很多事情，吵到冷战也不是第一次了，

     有时因为各自的想法和意见不同，而吵了几次。

    其实我最在乎是他对我所说的每句话，有时他冲口而出的话会伤害到我的心，他却不知道

   他的话对我的心造成的伤害，有时和他发生争执时我都尽量保持沉默，因为我不想和他吵。

   每次和他发生争执时，我都很难过因为我只想平静地和他在一起，而每当发生争执时，我就

   心伤了。

    我要的是你的行动而不是海誓山约，因为只有行动和时间才能证明你对我的真诚度，

    每天能够陪我记得分钟就够了，我并不希望因为你没睡觉为了睡觉而忽略我的感受，

   我只希望你能明代和了解我的感受，而不是忽略我的存在。

   我知道你有时因为累了而睡觉，但你要知道我去你家是陪你，所以请你别忽略我的存在。

The most important things in life is family ,Do you agree?

          Long time don't update my blogger already,
          And just now have some idea to continuing my blogger,
someone say money is more important and someone say money can make everything perfect,
          But do you thinking about your family is the most important thing in your life is family?
         I totally agree about this statement because every people has not same family,but somehow some people is unlucky and they since born out do not family and lonely in this world,
        Money can't buy any relationship especially family because only god can decide which family to you,
but you do not have chance to decide which family you want.
         Even you are rich but do not have family support you also useless because family can give you a warm feeling and give you feel secure when  you happen something in outside.
         Someone say if no money then maybe will break the family but I think if your family is really love and care about you even you not so rich also will still treat like same.
        Maybe the time will passing hardly but the family will still give supporting to you to spend the hard time,
family is family,they will still same to love and care about you.
       When you need them , they will come out and give you a helping hand to solve the problem,when you in trouble,the family is the first person come out to help you because they care and love you more than other.
     Last thing ,family is more important than money because money can't buy any realationship,when you need them ,they will come out to give you a helping you,when you in trouble,they will be more worry to other,when you feel sad ,they will console you.
     Family always will support you in anytime and anywhere,no matter how you are ,they are still same to you,never change to you,only family can fully trusted.



                 Family is the most important thing in life,no people want to be lonely.

Recently mood

             Recently,my mood is not so stable,sometimes depressed,sometimes is mood~less,
             These few day,I'm thinking a lot and also ask my friend how's her and her boy friend,
            She told me that her boyfriend not tell her the truth and sometimes he sleep until forget his promise to
            her,
           She said his friend told her if her don't get along with him longer~can break up to his boyfriend,
           but everytimes his boyfriend make always almost want to say the word,
           I'm know his boyfriend make her so moody and mood~less,
           She also say his boyfriend is hopeless for her because he look like no sincere to her,
           And she will not easily believe his boyfriend is sincere with any word.
          Why his boyfriend do this to her?As i known ,she is a good person to me.

          If you can realize the promise to somebody~please don't easily promise to people,
          because if you failed to do that~the person which you promise will feel sad and disappionted or despair.
       

           girl 's heart like a glass is easily to get breaking,if you fully love the girl,please don't hurt the girl so much and protect her heart with carefully.Girl's heart is easily to protect because girl need more care and take care their feeling ,even they need a people to protect her and her so much.
         

Today's mood

             Just now know my march exam get band 3 and feel that my muet is already retrogress,
             even my classmate also told me that my muet is retrogress,
             I'm think the listening and writing are the most difficult part to score for me,
             Just because the writing's one part get band 3 and other get band 2 and make me drop to band 3,
             listening also worse because so hard to me to catch the point,
             Two of my friend get band 4 and fell that they are already improve to themselves,
             
            This march exam's result is worse is does't mean anything,
            maybe next time I'm can get better than this result,
            Now until mid-year exam still got many time to improve myself ,
            Now cannot go trip with my friend but I'm can use the time to study myself,
            I'm just feel some little stress because my target for MUET is atleast get band 4 but I'm have to try  
            harder to achieve my goal.
           In front of my sight have many better future for me,
         I'm cannot easily giving up for myself,
         I'm must remember my proverb never give up.

                       Just now I know that He is busy working and even din eat his lunch and breakfast,

                   And his friend told me that He is very busy and his working life is hard to him and

                  L ook at him in his office.. is hard for him.. he work because for MY FUTURE.

                 All thing done by him is just for me.And I'm realize I'm was selfish and don't understand him so much.

                 What can I'm do for him is try to control my emotion and try to understand his situation.

                He also want accompany me because his job is too much thing to do and will often accompany me.

               I hope the time can pass quickly and all the thing will be fine.

               If this year I can success my study journey,after that anything will be fine.

Recently the mood

           T

the day after tomorow will be my exam week

          this due to the tiring reasons,

         These day my mood not so stable and sometimes will feel lazy and tired,

         Maybe the exam causes me some little stressful,

        My class teacher said if all of us in this exam get one subject failed and will punish us

       after that,I will worried about my some subject because those subject make me failed in last year,

      so this time ,I'm must make sure those subject will pass in this exam,

      but sometimes I will temporary hardworking to do revision,after that become origin.

      

       Everytimes when the exam is coming,will make me feel stress and hate that feeling,

        IN these year,I very hope can quickly finishing my study journey and take some destination to  

        relaxing my mind and my soul.

        If get a chance,I'm willing to travel in other country and experience their natural environment.

      If get a chance,I'm willing to put down boulder and relaxing my mind.

交往半年的心声

                                 他是她的他，她有时拿他当出气筒，而他就乖乖地给她发泄，

                                  她喜欢他，她觉得他有安全感，很舒服。

                                  她在最灰心的时候，最需要他的劝告，在最难过的时候，最需要他的安慰，

                                 当她知道他出事和生病的时候，就会心痛难过。

                                

                           从去年到现在已有半年了，她和他都经历过不少不愉快的事，

                          甚至从冷战到差点放弃对方也有试过，到后来因为想通了，

                           而坚持下去和他度过难关，他为了迁就她就忍声吞气地委屈自己来迁就她。

                          他在她的朋友眼中是个好男友。她的朋友叫她要好好珍惜他和不要放弃他。

                          有时她的一时冲动却不知道会间接地伤害了他。而他却默默地忍受她的任性。

                           

                          她有时想为自己的冲动而向他道歉，却心里挣扎着该该道歉才好。

                          她和他冷战时其实内心是很痛苦的，但为了避免再争吵，她只好沉默起来了。

                         

                           谢谢他在半年以来包容她的任性和付出。

My feeling

           My march's exam is coming soon and I'm want to keep my last final exam muet's band

           One day,my classmate Jia weng told me that before that I'm had ambitoius to score some   

          subject and last time I'm never lazy to do revision.

          But now I'm already change and lazy to do revision,even the exam is near the corner.

         Yesterday,he told me that he got a great job and the post is branch manager,

         and I'm felt that when he get the post,will become a busy person and will can't beside me everytime,

       but when the situation stuck in my mind, I felt depressed because the time we get along with each 

      other will less than before that.

      

         The situation same with my sister and her boyfiriend,when my sister study local Uniwersiti in 

        labuan and leave her boyfriend in here to working,but they just can get along with each other in

       few month,because my sister few month come back each time,when they meet each other,

       they will treasure that time very much and appreciate it.

    But how can my sister can do this?For me ,maybe a selfish person and just want my love ones can always beside me.But now I'm no longer can just stand by my side and think about his feeling.

 what can i do for him is just give supporting for him to working and earn more money to secure a better future life.When his busying with his own job,maybe I can try harder to keep the feeling and do revise to make myself busy to don't think too much.


                           Same thing is just hope the time can past faster.

When you almost want start to quarrel with your partner

                              When you feel almost start to quarrel with your partner,    

                             What should we do?Apology or keep silent?

                             I think I will choose reticent .

                            because whatever I'm talking also will make us start to quarrel.

                           when you quarrel with your partner,finally you will get nothing and will feel Hurt and 

                          heart breaking even sadness.

                           So,when I'm almost quarrel to him, suddenly I will reticent because I'm don't want 

                         hurt  each other.Even if his response not good for me,I'm also still reticent.

                          Everytime quarrel with him,finally my heart is broken and feel hurt ,even sadness.

                        

                      Quarrel with your partner will get mothing,but can hurt others feeling.even can make us

                      to break up.But sometimes your partnet is for your own good, you will not accept it well

                     and you can try to accept it slowly.Finally ,you know all the thing done by him is just for 

                      your good and stand by your point.Even me sometimes can't stand by him point and

                      misreading their meaning.Then he will feel sad.

 

       Women is oversensitive because she worrying about other and scare will lost other ,

      But the men are disagree what about the women thinking.

     Sometimes women is care about the men ,but the men disunderstand their women's meaning,

    and scold their women so noisy.

                          I hope men can understand the women's thinking,if she is oversensitive about you,

                          that means they care about you and not a busybody.

                       If she give advise to you,you must accept it well,because not all the women will do this 

                       for her men.

                         

                     

The happening of yesterday

Yesterday night,he had a bad mood,and use not good voice to reply my question
but I felt that no need quarrel with him and keep silent to him
When he drove the car to fetch me back,his speed is speed up and I was
disunderstood.
after that when the time is about twelve something,I saw two message from him
to explain why him like that.And I also reply to him.
He sais all the lesson for him,and one of the lesson is he force me to study
just because want me know is for my own good and can secure the better future.
And however the life is difficult,he also never give up to me.
What are he thnking just for my own good and sometimes I'm can accept it well.
After that,he apologize to me and is ok to me.

When I was decide

When I was working as coordinator in one company,
I was thinking about how to continue my study and choose some decision
Finaly,I was decide to study form six to be my choice,
just because my spm result was not satisfaction and I made dificult
decision is study form six to continue my study journey.
That time when I was decide ,I was not think too much and just want to
made my result complete perfectly and don't want feel regret again,
so I'm thought the choice are good choice.
But many people said if you choose to study form six is very dificult
because in one and a half year you must hardworking and make sure you
get a good result can enter the local universiti.
For me,I'm just want to complete my study journey in form six but not .
But not about enter the local universiti.

And now,my family member expecially my mother often emphasize want my
aim is finishing my form six with perfectly and enter the local
universiti to succeed my study journey.
Even he also want me succeed my form six's journey and enter the local
universiti.
Originally,my aim is not about universiti and is about complete my aim
and now everyone hope me can enter the universiti.
How can I make myself don't feel regret again and make everyone the
dreams come true?That is a big trouble for me?

haiz..

当你一时的期望被一些因素影响到的时候，

你的理智出现先还是情绪出现先，

我很确定地告诉你，我是情绪出现先，因为每次你告诉我某些决定，我的思想就会告诉我，

我的某些东西可能会有所改变或影响，所以会有点情绪化，

有时每当情绪化时，我的情绪就有所波动而淹没了我的理智，那时的我根本分辨不出好还是坏，

我有时的思想会偏向负面，因为我觉得我是那种有点忧郁的人，所以每当告诉我一些事，

我是不能很理智地想东西。

人家说就算天塌下来，我们也应该看开点因为凡事都有它的原因，有些事是由不得你作决定，

所以只好听天由命和见步行步。

Continueing the last topic
Now,I'm very agree about m topics,that i health is important than wealth,because my love ones nearly fall to sick and my mood become bad.This is due to the he don't take care his body an always burn midnight oil for his own paperwork.

Who can tell me wealth is more important or health is more important?

sometimes I'm think about it,maybe wealth can secure a better life

but sometimes when yours love ones is sick,maybe you get some bad feeling

like me when my love ones is getting sick or not feeling well,my feeling is sad and my mood is not so good,

even I will think health will more important than wealth,

but maybe some people will disagree with me, just because now the world is become materialistic,so they will think wealth is more important than health,

without money cannot do anything,got money can do anything.

But if you got money and you is not healthy,can you do anything you want to do without anxiety.

But if you got money and you have a good healthy,I can tell you you sure can do anything without anxiety.

提醒自己

我有时发觉自己的情绪管理有点问题

因为有时会突然对他发脾气，但他却对我容忍，虽然每次都是我开始吵起来，

但到最后都是他主动向我道歉，而不是我主动的，又是我的任性却会造成他自己的委屈，

有时他为了成全我而委屈了自己。有时他的想法是对的，我却一时激动地闹情绪。

我现在新年愿望就是希望他平平安安无事和健健康康地和我在一起了，我会珍惜我和他度过的 每一分每一秒，

因为我发现我好像不能缺少了他，他的抱抱能带给我的安心，他的安慰能抚平我不安的心，

有你就好了，我想和你度过未来的这些日子。

2011

新的一年新的开始，老天爷又在给我们考验了，

或许老天爷要让我知道爱一个人并不容易，

所以从去年尾到今年都设下许多考验在他身上，

要考验我是不是一个容易放弃的人，

虽然刚开始那些考验真的令我和他心痛流泪了许多次，

但我们都必须心痛后才能通过这些考验，

他和我说过一句话：过了这些难关后就好了，幸福就在等我们了，过了风风雨雨后我们的未来就好了

今年似乎很难过了，因为他找到工作后就不能常陪我了而我就要面临STPM了，

虽然我曾经有想过要放弃这段情，但我告诉自己这条路是我选择的，

所以不能轻易放弃自己，否则对不起自己。

我相信这些难关打不倒我们，过了这年就好了。

我一定要坚持到底，不能轻易就放弃了。